and a happy new year . . .

2012...probably the craziest year of my life. 2012 has brought me more change, challenge, and chaos than any other year. it has also brought me more happiness, love, and patience.

 i won't lie...i am not sad to see it go. 2012 kicked my butt. i feel like i failed more than i succeeded this year. the trials have been plentiful, but so have the blessings. the things that i did accomplish (not killing the baby) are more important than any other achievements in my life. and the things that i failed, i have learned from and i am ready to move on.

big choices were made. a baby was born. life was changed.

the best part of 2012 is obviously miles. having a baby has changed me in ways i can't even explain. i never knew i could survive off such little sleep and no personal space. ha! i have also never experienced such love and compassion. i just melt when miles smiles. (i know...it rhymes) he is so full of sweetness. i can't imagine life without him, now. ...sometimes i reflect fondly on the time brandon and i had together before he was born...but i wouldn't go back. (ok...maybe for a day. or just a friday night. but just long enough to go to dinner and a movie)

miles has brought so much love into our family. i just couldn't love anything more.

i feel like a truck ran over me. a truck called 2012, but i am ready to pick myself up and go out swinging into 2013. i've got some tricks up my sleeve and some big ideas in mind. it's time to get back to it. no more "i just had a baby and moved away from home" excuses!

we've got some exciting plans and good things to look forward to. starting with the exciting news that we found a house! we are officially sticking around the nothwest for a few more years, and we close/move in february.

it's gonna be a good year, and i am ready for it!!

so bring it on, 2013! lets do this!

happy new year!

and also...watch this...i am in love.

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